Helpless

Have you ever felt completely helpless?

That you just sit there feeling totally worthless?

And your over thinking is never endless?

When your mentality and emotions are severely merciless?

And you think there’s nothing in your hands nevertheless?

Do you happen to know how it feels like to have psychological disturbance?

When everything is torturing and exhausting that it leaves you quite breathless?

Are you familiar with that inner feeling that keeps your soul restless?

You’re only good at assumptions and far-fetched analysis.

Have you ever wished you were cold or at least careless?

Have you ever wished to take a break from whatever your mind questions?

Have you ever felt that over thinking has made your actions reckless?

Do you always feel guilty and punished by your conscience?

Do you know how hard it is to try to doubt less?

Do you know how it feels like to just accept being absolutely voiceless?

And drain yourself and allow your thoughts to be repressed?

But you still fight battles with all that’s in your subconscious

Do you ever ask yourself why you’re too selfless?

Have you ever felt bad for showing people too much kindness?

Or have you ever been accused of showing fake innocence?

Do you always feel like you’re a source of annoyance?

People have let you down more than once,

You’ve started to become numb and lifeless,

And you’ve had enough with showing unreal indifference.

Thus, you’ve chosen to become bold and fearless;

But no matter how much you try to show hardness,

You fail, because all you have in your heart is tenderness,

You struggle for comfort and you wonder where you lost calmness.

Have you ever swallowed your questions because you think there will be no answers?

Have you ever tried to show ignorance? When you actually already had awareness?

Just to let things go. You think that this might make you stress less

However, you suffer solely, silently and in negligence;

You don’t speak up. Silence is your preference .

You don’t want to open up no matter how urgent or how serious…

Even though you have many friends, you still keep things to yourself.

Do you really find people to that extent too trustless?

Or do you have nothing but nothingness?

Well who is now to be blameless?

Is it you or everyone else?

What has ruined you so much and made you see no goodness?

What has made you so sure that nothing wins except selfishness?

Who has convinced you that your sentiment is foolishness?

When will you let it all out at least to an anonymous?

When will you understand that it’s okay if your thoughts don’t make sense?

Who cares? If it troubles your mind so bad, then it is of great importance

There is nothing wrong in being sensitive and spontaneous

This is what explains your uniqueness and this is what makes you wondrous

But don’t isolate yourself because you’ve got a lot to share, don’t be speechless

You never know who might bring back your brightness,

You never know who might be the reason that you no longer feel helpless