Anxiety

*sees something that triggers anxiety and overthinking, then fights with the voices in the mind* Here's how it goes and here's what I want to say..

Jumping to conclusions and making assumptions are two evil things that a mind inexplicably enjoys to do...

But oh God, they just happen out of the blue.. And oh God if the first gut instinct turns out to be true..! What a dilemma and a sense of loss you'll have to go through!

But would disappointment be a surprise if you've already expected it too? Would you break down, cry and ache although you already knew? I can hear you secretly wishing your mind was mute. Man, your mind is insanely overthinking and asking lots of questions! Poor you..

*Ssshhhh! breathe, let go and listen to some words from someone who isn't a very good advisor, but someone who knows how critically important it is to express your worries, and someone who just wishes and will try to make you feel good*

I know my dear how much you fear feeling weak and vulnerable...but it's okay! You're flesh and blood..you can scream, cry or argue! But please, pretty please, stop blaming yourself a lot. And don't choose silence..It is just so cruel!!

Courage, my dear! Speak up, let out your pain..let even your eyes rain..what's the pride *that's holding you back* for anyway?

Those who choose silence are so many, those who speak and express are too few. There's no wonder why we see all those angry faces on the road.. These are hearts that need to scream and talk but the mouths genuinely refuse..

Someone told me before, "Well, imagine that the mind doesn't want to shut up, but the lips of the mouth don't even want to move." Yes, I know it's hard.. I know mind battles are exhausting and unbearable..but you know what too? I also pity your heart!

Your heart wouldn't mind accepting every petty excuse..because it wants to survive Oh..how sweet and merciful, and how very fool!

Yet would your brain give up and let the heart *at least once in a lifetime* rule? I don't believe the mind is a quitter, it is stubborn, it wouldn't accept to lose! It has been a battle since the beginning of creation..since Adam's fall.."when the heart leads, be ready to face doom", the majority said. But I don't think so..

"To protect yourself, stay silent..be secretive, deceive yourself that everything's cool. If you let out, you put yourself at risk of being fooled...no one cares, they are just curious. Don't give them a reason to use against you..instead, suffer alone, turn your heart into ice and make yourself seem bold," they aggressively dictated the youth.

But the voice of conscience roars, "My heart goes out for you who blindly were born to follow the rules..they made you think it's brave to be lonely although you have many around you, and they convinced you that swallowing pain is a sign of manhood."

oh look at you trying to be so clever; And tearing your mind into pieces for a clue.. Searching for answers all alone and praying for a rescue. But tell me from who??!!! I am afraid, my dear, you'll reach none of the two! This is what overthinking does to you..this is what silence and isolation will lead you to... Absutely nowhere!

You're mind is troubled with things you doubt their existence, are they true or untrue? You escape from confrontation just because you fear the truth!

You're running out of chances by the waste of time you consume! Whatever's on your mind should be expressed whether approved or disapproved..at least you'll feel a burden has been removed without a further ado!

I wish I had more to say but to conclude, Give yourself a chance and give your mind a break. May your silent cries would be felt and soon to be soothed!