Excuse me when I cry

Excuse me when I cry,

And always apologize;

But I know it happens all the time.

It’s annoying I know right,

But I can’t help it, and I don’t know why.

My tears just flow by

I just have no power over my eyes.

I know it makes you sad to see my tears

And making you sad is one of my worst fears.

Sometimes I try to hide,

But it burns me deep inside

And I have no choice but to unleash

Whatever’s curbed inside of me.

It just happens all of a sudden in deed

And trust me; I hate it because it makes me feel so weak

I never like crying, because it actually feels like dying

And I suffer later on with my accelerated heart beats

Which wake me up in the middle of the night

Heavy-hearted, and disturb my sleep;

I feel numb and sometimes I can’t breathe

I never thought that crying is so powerful like that

I never thought it could overwhelm my body and how I feel

Anxiety attacks are the worst; they never leave me in peace

I hate my shaky voice when I am about to cry

Trust me, it’s not my choice, you know how much I love to rejoice

You know I am cheerful, optimistic and positive most of the time

You know well how much I love making noise and laughing out loud,

You know I choose happiness over sorrow, and have a simple mind

And you’re sure that I’d never choose black over white.

Maybe I am very sensitive to the extent that it’s suffocating

My emotions are untamed and literally very wild:

I could cry about significant and insignificant things every once in a while

I can’t hold in how I feel for so long, but if I do,

My feelings erupt very soon

Like a volcano that burns,

And never stops too.

I don’t know how my tears flow like a waterfall

They are salty and they burn my cheeks

Do you think I’d choose that to happen to me?

I know I still sound like a child and I think I will always be

I am just very needy,

And I admit that completely

I know I am flawed, but who isn’t anyway?

Maybe this will make me stronger one day.

Sadly, the majority takes that against me and scolds me for it

I know one word from you; will take away all the pain

And make the ache deliberately fade away

Excuse me and forgive my eyes for crying all night

All that can be done is patting on my shoulders and saying things will be alright

I only want to hear, “I’ll never leave you till it’s bright and very fine.”

Oh how much I wish I could stop doing that already, but I promise I will try.